I have reached 2 strange paths. Paths I had never thought I would have to cross. Well one of em' I knew I'd have to cross... but the other... not so much.
I am planning my next move with PTS, but I am unsure as to how to go about it. No... not asking him to be my BF just yet, more left to do... like financial security. But I do want to make seeing him a regular thing. Like once a week. But I don't know how to go about making that happen. I mean do I make a call and leave the ball in his court? Do I just forget about him for a bit and let him come to me? I hate this game and I don't play it very well. As a friend said to me, "What if he is doing the same thing and no one ever calls?". Which seems silly, doesn't it. I don't usual play this dating game... but what else am I to do? Maybe he'll call me back. I left him a message telling I should be at the Alley tomorrow night and staying with a friend in Somerville.
The other thing is my libido and how I have been indulging it waaayyyy too much. I don't know what I should do. I mean on one hand I love the attention, on the other I really don't WANT to be known as the guy who fucked all of Worcester. I mean given the reputation of others, I have a LONG way to go before that happens. I guess I just don't want to make a habit out of it that's hard to break when my special someone comes along. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that my work situation leaves me with a lot of free time in which I occupy myself with sex. Perhaps when this Apple thing comes through.. less time might equal less free time for sex and my libido will calm down a little. Or it may not calm down at all and I end up fucking some co-worker or customer. LAWL
So the questions are:
Do I let him come to me?
and
Should I continue indulging my libido like a fat kid in a fudge shop with too much money?
- Daemian
4 comments:
As for the game question, you've already heard my opinion on the 'dating game' in the first place. For better or worse, my approach is up-front and direct. I say what I want to say.
As for question #2, people will always jokingly refer to their friends as "whore" at the drop of a hat. The problem is when they stop joking. You have a tendency to brag about frequency, duration, and satisfaction of encounters on a regular basis, which leads to the impression they are frequent and varied. I would vote for reigning in a tad, and letting go of a little bit of the need to create an image of epic sex pro. Now that you have an epic Mac pro aspect to your personality, talk about that instead, and people will see you more three dimensionally.
Ah ah ah... I tend to always ensure when I talk about great sex that they know it wasn't just some random. :P
I don't mind the friends joking part and tell the sex stories. That's all in good fun. And trust me, I am already getting my balls busted about the Mac Pro thing. It is more a matter of self perception. I don't see myself as a whore yet. I see myself as someone who is getting used to being single but given my addictive personality I can see how this can easily become a problem.
Hi Daemian: be real and go for the guy. That's the big challenge. And slow the sex stuff. Find someone that wants more from you. Usually that's more fun
Wonder Man:
One of my favorite Comic Book characters is WonderMan!
As for the advice, yes I should slow the sex stuff. I don't want to become a sex addict. :P As my friend Jeremy (Jered74) pointed out.. others impressions will be impacted, which is not a bad thing. Up to this point as a single man making a new life all I have been is a bouncer, hopeless romantic and sex monger. Given my new opportunity there will be more work related stuff and less sex related stuff. :)
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