Remember Where You Are... This is Thunderdome...

Talk about a battle for the ages. A clash of the titans. A Battle Royale... hell This is a heavy weight bout. Strongest wins!

I have had a most fucked up day. To top off all of my frustrations all I wanted was a cigarette. I mean I fought tooth and nail today. I didn't fall... maybe I can keep this up. The urge was strong... but I was stronger. I just figured I'd throw that short blah out there. I needed to say it to someone, may as well be you chulos!

I fought and I won today. 18 Days, 11 Hours and 4 minutes nicotine free. I have no doubt I will fall at least once, I am a clumsy beast... but this time is different. I don't want to smoke anymore.

Laters chulos!

- D

A Sign of The Future?

Well I am finding myself craving Jason more and more. Things are just goin damn well. I could not invent a more suitable match for me. I find myself wanting to spend more and more time with him. Can't believe how lucky I am. This does present a minor issue... time.

I have work, friends and now my boyfriend. I have to find a way to mix all three. Work is my biggest hurdle. If I can normalize my schedule I can manage it all. The past 2 weeks have been full of 11 to 8 hours. They suck! By the time I get home from work on those days my friends are asleep and my boyfriend isn't far behind them. Once these hours get right my whole week changes. The time budget grows and I can live a bit more of my life.

Jason and I will be doing our first weekend away on Valentines day weekend. I am very excited! I mean I have only ever done one weekend away with Mike. We went to VA Beach with Tommy and all we did was argue. The trip there, the entire weekend and on the trip back home. This time will be different.

Attempted to efile my fed taxes... I didn't get a pin number last year... so I had to just put 0 in my AGI field. Uuughh.. I hope they don't reject it. Mailing in the taxes can cause 5 to 10 weeks before I get my return. Ick.

Got game night with my 2 dads this Saturday. I am dragging Jason along, perfect opportunity for me to spend time with my friends and my boyfriend.

Dare I say I am completely in love? Never experienced something like this before. Wow... me? In love again? Who knew? But here I am... in love.

Now for my next trick... the resurrection of Harry Houdini!

-D

Drunk Blogging

So here I am. I had a night of watching Torchwood episode and drinking with my buddy Seamus. Feeling rather lovely. Sorta miss hold Jason tonight, but enjoying having time with my buddies. I wonder how long I will stay awake.

Bought vodka for Seamus as I owe em a bottle and picked myself up some Jaeger. Jaeger and ginger ale make an interesting comba. Gonna lay down now... maybe watch hitman and be happy with it all. ;).

-D

WOW!

Wow! And I am not talking about the game. If someone said to me I would be head over heals for someone a month ago I would have slapped em in the mouth for blasphemy. But here I am... head over heals for Jason.

He stayed over last night. I made dinner, we watched TV, went to bed, held each other most of the night. It was bliss.
I love how effortless this all is. Things just fit. We get each other, I rarely misunderstand what he means when he says something... unless I am faking it to get I'm to spell things out. It's awesome! Trust me I know relationships have peaks and valleys. But I was looking at him last night and felt I could not be angry at him for long. I am happy. Funny that.

Work has been trying to say the least. Some newbs are here and are getting a little too big for their britches. The hours are taking their toll on me. I can't do the same things a 20yo can in terms of the hours they put in. I just have to make it to april 20th. That's one year and I can either transfer or move up. I am looking to the future tho. So I am sprucing up the resume' and trying to find a higher ground just in case things don't go as planned with Apple.

Got a new phone that is allowing me to blog on the go, so I should be able to post more often seeing as I can post on the go. All in all life is falling back in line. I hope to continue the upward trend.

Later chulos!!

-D

A New Year, a New Beginning...

Hey chulos! Life has been making it very difficult to blog regularly. So here is New Years update for yas. A lot has happened since I last blogged about my wretched attempt to fit a square peg into a round hole. Man I must have desparate. He wasn't even that hot... shallow I know, but it's like why did I try so hard. So of course after a month of "men suck" and "how could I be so stupid"... without even trying someone found me. Totally unexpected. I mean we just clicked. Round peg, round hole. We have seen each other quite a bit over the past few weeks and it has all been effortless. it just works. Wow... now this I can see going somewhere. Hell he is even turned on by my intellect. He is very outside my box... but even Seamus thinks we match very well. Seamus is very protective of me so for him to think someone is good for me is huge. New Years Eve was fun. Went to a bear event in connecticut. The event was fun. The after party was better. Consisted of me and our host drinking vodka cran all night long. I miss my Jeremy terribly, work has me ll kinds of busy so i can barely even play wow. I have to eek out some time so Jeremy can meet my new beau Jason. Later Chulos! D