Friday, December 21, 2007

Anger...

My sorrow has turned to anger. Mike and I do frequent common web forums. As I was reading his biolog I get to read the lie. I won't say what the lie is, all I will say is that I have never seen this side of him before. Could he lie? Sure... but I never thought he would nor could do that to me. He lied about me and us. No matter now. I guess I have to stop caring. I am so fucking angry right now.

He won't say what the catalyst was.

In fact makes it sound like he some quirk I can't deal and am running away with my tail between my legs. I just can't believe this. The anger just makes me want to be vindictive.

I have been becoming increasingly more hostile to the outside world. Mostly, I guess, it's because I don't know what else to do with the hurt. But now anger... I know what I normally do with it, but with all that is going on all I feel is the need to hit something.

I hope I don't revert to former behaviors. I have to get a better hold of myself.

Not good.

-Daemian

2 comments:

jered74 said...

In two weeks you will be in a completely new environment; hopefully that will help!

And I will do my best to prevent 'old habits' from returning.

Daemian said...

I just can't believe the mess I have created.