I Have Come!

So I have come to Worcester. The drive up here was actually very speedy. I think we were only on the road for about 2 - 3 hours. 3 hours is pushing it even. The new roommates are pretty cool.

Joe is a tall one, sorta reminds me of Mike in his manner of speaking. It's odd that my straight male roommate reminds me of my ex.

Ash is a total sweetheart. Pierced and all... and damn is she tall. She and I are going to have a fucking ball. I think I am in for a wild ride with this gal. She reminds me of Brianne. Very out going and vibrant.

My room is a sickly blue color... that has to change. Apparently I know people in home decor. I didn't even know I knew people in home decor. But I was filled in last night, totally had to pretend like I knew the entire time tho. I didn't want to get another "Bad Homo!". But... now don't tell anyone this... whenever I hear Home Depot or Lowes my mind immediately goes to wood. Get your head out of the gutter bitches... I mean lumber. I am used to going to places like that to get stuff to build shit with. Not really familiar with their home decor section. I know, I know... "Bad Homo!". I have a lot to learn I see. But that being said... I have got to paint that damn room. Maroon, maybe a nice rich baige and brown? I don't know but that Blue color has got to go. Oooh maybe a nice cherry wood color or deep walnut.

I bought a bed last night, I will post a picture of it when it arrives on Saturday. It looks pretty sweet too. I had originally wanted the Camelot metal bed, but Jaeryd felt it was kind of... well... femme. This is why I love shopping with Jaeryd. I have no sense of balance. I either get wayyy too femme or waayyy too masculine items. Never that balance that is gay. Well Jaeryd picked out one hell of a bed that was actually $50 less than my first choice. It is very masculine with a very soft feel and made of metal. It felt VERY sturdy and I had to let Jaeryd know... I need a sturdy bed. The reasons why I would hope are obvious. But if they are not, regardless of the role I am playing ( be it dom top or sub top) I like passionate, voracious, fairly kinky.... you know... the S_ _ word. :P (note: I am not really a prude, I just thought it was funny)

Spent more money on it than I had originally intended. I planned on spending no more than $550 for the frame, headboard, footboard and the mattress set. Instead I ended up spending $632. $82 over my intent. To top it all off... Linen n Things. $68 spent there on 2 pillows and a sheet set. No blanket. I should have bought a cheap ass blanket from the cheapo store in Astoria before I left. I still need a desk. I think I may have found an OK desk on craigs list for about $100. If I get lucky I might be able to find a cheaper one. I don't need anything too intense. Maybe another trip to Ikea is in order.

Went to Blu last night. Filled out the application n shit. Had 3 drinks. It was pretty dead there as we were early. Didn't stay long, Jaeryd had to work and I was sorta feeling like I just wanted to acclimate to my new home. With any luck I will hear from them tonight. If I do.. woohoo!

On to Mike. He sent me an email at about 2am. I was already asleep, sort of so I did not see it until I unearthed my laptop this morning. He says the apartment feels hollow without me there. That he still loves me and hopes I come home. I don't know how to feel about this. Being taken for granted for so long. Being sexually and emotionally starved for so long. Having him take a swing at me and miss (in a sense, not the violence but the act that lost my trust in him). We both need to grow up and I know that if I turned back now... it would just be more of the same. I need more than that. I need emotional support. I need sexual gratification. I need more than he has ever given me. I am not leaving it out of the question that he and I may some day he and I will get back together. If we are both single and have made the changes in ourselves we needed to make... sure. But we do not know what tomorrow brings. I know I am a damn good catch with a damn good amount to offer outside of my bangin' dingaling and not too hard on the eyes either. So who knows, someone who is a better fit for me may come along and snatch me right up. He'd be a fool not to. I am not perfect. Far from it. But I know I am a good, honorable, cute, long and strong man.

Mike is trying to get laid as soon as possible. I don't know if that is good for him or not. Truth be told I had 6 months of torment regarding what ultimately ended in Nov. I have had one month to get out all of my tears. I am ok with this now. My only concern for him is his mind and his wellbeing. I don't know if I feel jealous. I don't think I do.

So Worcester, MA... I have arrived!

-Daemian